Something about you makes me feel threatened.
I don't know what it is, or even what you are,
but instinctively I recoil within myself.
I am the only one I trust, the only one I know
for an absolute certainty won't hurt me. So
slowly I draw away and watch the world
around me get smaller and smaller, shrinking
and distorting until voices sound under water.

Finally.
I am alone.
Just me and the voices
in my head, my own third party, objective
point of view. And it is only my opinion that
counts, so I'll chastise and grow within
my cocoon until one day I emerge more successful
and beautiful than you ever imagined. Idyllic.

Yes.
I'll be my own parent,
mentor,
master,
slave driver,
tyrant,
DOM
until I'm strong enough
to withstand even the acid rain of Sodom. Wait...
What are you doing? This wasn't supposed to hurt.

- Written circa April 2010.

Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 03/17/2013 04:13PM by Lady of the Evening.

Love the last line. Powerful.

Thanks. I wrote this so long ago. Not sure I ever really freed myself from myself.

Good to see you posting again.

Les

I think it is impossible to be free of one self, Nutmeg. It is sort of the human condition. My wife, QueenB and myself do it a lot; that mental submersion to get space in a crowd. For me that is driving. My own car, no passengers; just me, the road and my music, for QueenB it is books.

A small critique; it should be DOMME, because you are a woman.

Been a while Kid. happy you are still here.

Thank you, Bruce, I'll make the correction.

And thanks, Merc. I'm sorry, I don't recognize your username. What did it used to be?

Lol. He used to be lots of things, twotenranch being, I think, the most recent. I just call him Terry Johnson.

'tis I... 'tis only I... Dr. Pete sent me an email claiming he was trying to get this site fired up again.. thought I'd stop by. I told Mitts.

Watch out,

Dr. Pete claims all kinds of stuff. Can't trust some of it. It is really Les who kept this ship afloat...I was just hanging around waiting for everybody else to come back.

Again, I do like this piece.

amoe et avanti,

Peter

Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 03/21/2013 10:10PM by petersz.

Oh, Terry! I was hoping we'd see you around!

And Peter, I've considered you as much a pillar to this community as Les, although admittedly he works harder as a mod.

Peter, even Les would have failed if he hadn‘t had a sidekick to give his fight meaning. Thank you.

Pete, my darling mother used to tell people not to believe anything I said, and only 50% of what they actually saw me do.

It seems to me, young Megan, that you have gotten inside the head of a dangerous woman, when writing this. Hope you managed to get back out again unscathed.

Ian B
(fka cityprod)

isn't crazy how even your mind contrives to work against you...I understand all too well.

Hey Ian,

Slow getting to the party, but at least you are here again. lol.

I am using my wife's laptop and holy hell, the thing is a dinosaur. The keys are the size of tonka trucks, so I can barely type on it. Ergo, my time here today will be brief.