It's not Monday, It's not Today

I feel there must be something in here
somewhere

Rough night for sleeping , or not.
no changes. No room for change.
Maybe the moon will make a difference
for someone else. For me,
fishes and horsed archers are all the same.

I do not even see the stars
fall out of the sky in bunches.
I do not look up.

I find
I can't watch news stories
about solitary confinement
this morning...
they make my temples hurt.

"how did you survive...?"
I can't even stand to hear the question,
after twenty years.

In the middle of the night
it seemed what I'd said to myself
about codependent relations
was total denial.

she asked me
to make sure I got the Castro.

pressure headache's
going away

Nancy and Bonnie
moves
me so tentative
1963
1970
1971
forever
so tentative

Bob Seeger's Night Moves
was not about me and mine

I threw out the last dead plant in the apartment
from when Bill and David lived here
this morning,
...nineteen years after their deaths.

It didn't take much to make me dizzy
and tipsy again this morning.

Monday Tuesday correction
on invitation with thanks

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her correction on my invites.

new doctor's appointment
for dizzy complaints
so she can determine
if it is heart, brain, meds, peripheral neuropathy.
bad diet or lack of sleep.

the doctor, she did not examine me today
since she was dealing with her phone bill
and her receptionist tried to tell me
I did not have an appointment.

The person at Walgreens again
tried to avoid bagging my purchase
when I did not ask her to sell me a bag.


love,

Dad
sent
 
I don't know how many times
I have said to myself today
'I have lost my mind'
almost as if
I were trying to make it happen
by saying it over and over

I can't make the phrases balance out
like the teetering of children's blocks
higher and higher
the balance
more and more complex
at each level

Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 10/23/2012 05:21PM by petersz.

boy can I relate to this.

me too...it depresses me.

amo et avanti,

Peter

Peter, this sounds like a very personal and intrapersonal assessment. Good job with this, and good health to you.

Les

thanks, Les. I do need to start re-focusing on the world and what is happening out there, though.


amo,

Peter