does anyone know where i can find this poem on line please?
I think it is still in copyright. I couldn't find it, and most "official" poetry sites surely won't have it because of that. I think you might have to hop over to a library...
Looks like every one of his poems (except for that one!) is here:
thanx 4 checking it was very much appreciated
thanks for looking anyway.
The POEM is not on this website, but there's an entry in the catalogue describing a manuscript of the poem--that is, IF it's the same poem!
The full title here is "The Last Hours of a Holiday" and the holiday appears to be a break from university studies.
Poem: starts--------I never say a wild thing feels sorry for itself.
Maria, your poem is here:
Here's one that seems to be an anomaly for Lawrence. Maybe that's why I liked it.
The Hands of God
It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
But it is a much more fearful thing to fall out of them.
Did Lucifer fall through knowledge?
oh, then, pity him, pity him that plunge!
Save me, O God, from falling into the ungodly knowledge
of myself as I am without God.
Let me never know, O God
let me never know what I am or should be
when I have fallen out of your hands, the hands of the living God.
That awful and sickening endless sinking, sinking
through the slow, corruptive levels of disintegrative knowledge
when the self has fallen from the hands of God,
and sinks, seething and sinking, corrupt
and sinking still, in depth after depth of disintegrative consciousness
sinking in the endless undoing, the awful katabolism into the abyss!
even of the soul, fallen from the hands of God!
Save me from that, O God!
Let me never know myself apart from the living God!